Monday, September 15, 2008


Hello, hello! I have been very very neglectful of my blog lately. I am staying with my parents for a while, substitute teaching at my old high school until I find a full-time job (long story, better served for a different blog) so I don't get on the internet as often as I do when I have high speed internet (satelite internet is painfully slow).... sorry about that!

I have also not been very good about keeping up with stuff in my weight loss challenge - I have lost 2 lbs. I do have an excuse - not a good one, but I have one! I left my running shoes at the Beau's house so my only options to work out were my Reefs or high heels. I did pull out this ski thing that my mom has and tried to work out while I was watching TV one day, but I think it needed some WD-40 because it didn't really work that well.

But now I have my running shoes, so I can go work out..... yay! I do have a big problem when I am home all day - last week I subbed every day an I ate SIGNIFICANTLY less that I do when I don't have a sub-day. So I need to control that, I definitely need to work on my "bored eating". But today I've been grading papers for my dad, so I've actually been pretty good. I had a piece of toast w/ pb for breakfast, some s'ghetti for lunch.... I did have a snack of a brownie with whipped cream on top, but I am proud of myself for not gorging myself with food like I did two weeks ago! I'm too distrated with doing algebra, which I haven't used in quite a number of years!

So, to sum everything up, I am trying hard to get back on track, and hopefully I'll have good news to report in the coming days!


Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Back In The Saddle Again

So, the beau and I went for a jog tonight. I wanted to be normal and jog around the neighborhood together (i mapped out a course on and everything!) but he wanted to go to the soccer park and run... so I obliged, since he was actually going with me. It was so ITCHY!! Especially since the grass was fresh cut and I couldn't find my long pants so I was wearing shorts. But I digress. I don't know how far we ran... we did 4 laps around side-by-side soccer fields. I looked up soccer field dimensions to see how far we ran, but apparently, there is no "set" soccer field dimension... there is a min for length and width, that varies 30 yards length wise and 50 yards width. Next time, I guess we need to go with a pedometer. At the least, we did 1600 yards (0.909091 miles) and at the most we did 2640 yards (1.5 miles). I am going to go with the maximum because it took us almost 18 minutes to do it, and I only walked about a a lap and a half, and I know I'm not that slow. Even walking I can do better than an 18 minute mile! :)

So I feel really good about myself. :) At Em's insistence, I am going to start training for the Richmond 8k. The website has a great training program to follow, which starts Sept 22, so that gives me plenty of time to get back in shape so I can really use the training program to work on my time (the training schedule is set up for people who are just starting out with their running). I would really love to get my time down. When I ran the Race for the Cure 5k, I did it in 45 minutes, averaging about a 14.something minute mile. I'd love to get down to a 12 minute mile (hey, baby steps! :} )

It's time to get SERIOUS! :) I need to surround myself with pictures of the beach to keep me inspired :)

Really Bad Weekend

So, I went a little hog wild over the weekend. Tsk, tsk, I know. But I'm back on the straight and narrow I think. I didn't gain any weight, at least, so that is good. I am waiting for the Beau to get home, and I'm going to try go convince him to go running with me, because he's been complaining about gaining weight too. That's really the only update that I have today. For lunch I had delicious blackberries and cottage cheese. For breakfast, I had a chick-fil-a sandwhich that we got for free yesterday... probably wasn't the best choice, but it was plain and delicious.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Sugar-Free Plums, Dancing In My Head

So, last night I fell asleep fairly early and was in a deep slumber... suddenly I started dreaming about Coldstone... yummy, yummy Coldstone. Suddenly, I was chastising myself in my dream, saying I couldn't eat Coldstone because I was trying to lose weight... so I started dreaming about the SmartOnes dessert. Specifically the chocoloate chip cookie dough one. Apparently I won't even let myself indulge in my little dream world. This is a good sign, no?

Which reminds me... I guess I should go grocery shopping.

I was supposed to go to Seal Team training with Em today but it was rainy and messy so we didn't go. However, I went to campus today to volunteer some, and I parked as far away as I could and walked all over the campus instead of driving around, so I was proud of myself for that. I am hoping it won't rain tomorrow so I can get outside and run.

I got on the scale yesterday and was 226... a pound down from 227, which is what I was at the Beau's house. But, two different scales... but it's a promise. Especially since my acheiving my goal sort involves losing a lb a week ......I've been good the past few days, although I did have one minor indescresion today - I knew after Sept 1 I was going to be super serious about the eating thing, plus I knew dinner wouldn't be until late and I was so so hungry, so I stopped to pick up an order of Crab Rangoon from the chinese food store because a.) I love them and b.) it was my last hurrah. It was a quick, yummy snack, but I know it was ridiculously not healthy. But.... it made me happy.

I found out that my friend bought "The Flat Belly Diet", and I was really excited, because I learned all about it on the Rachel Ray show and I am waiting for it to come to B&N so I don't have to pay $40 for it.... well, she is going to copy the grocery list and recipies for me to get a kick start on it. I must say, though, I am a little worried that the plan won't keep me satisfied, but we'll see! :)

So, almost a week gone of moving towards being healthy. I'm feeling good about this. *fingers crossed*. I'm going to kick ass. :)

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

My Fat Story

Now it seems like a good time to segue into my "fat" story.

I would like to take this moment to say that if you looked at me, you wouldn't think I weighed as much as I do. I've got wide shoulders, big boobies, and a surprisingly small waist. I am built like a line backer, according to my dear mother. I do have a big fat roll in my mid section, but I consider myself on the pretty side. I'm chunky... but don't like to consider myself "FAT".

As a kid, I was tall, skinny, and all arms and legs. I was a wild woodland child, climbing trees and playing in the creek and doing skin-the-cats on the monkey bars. Then.... puberty. Drat it all on puberty. Somehow then, I couldn't eat whatever I wanted and not gain weight. But I was never terribly fat... just fatter than all my friends. I was very active; I played softball and was in the marching band. Then, college. Somehow, the pounds has snuck up on me very slowly during my 4 years in college and my 3 years since.

And now they must go. Somehow after college, I snuck up to wearing a size 20. I got on the scale one day and it read 239. That was my wake up call. I freaked out. So, I starting working out more often, and I started training for a 5K and swimming 2 days a week. I dropped weight like THAT (imgine me snapping my fingers). I had to buy new pants and everything. I dropped 20 lbs and went to a 16. I was thrilled! But then life got a little hectic and I stopped working out and swimming and watching what I ate. So now I'm still bouncing around in the 220s. I desperately want to be sub-200. That is my biggest goal.

So, my boyfriend and I are in this together. He wants to loose weight too (even though he is incredibly sexy, he has some lbs he wants to take off) but he doesn't need to take off as much as I do. So we decided to challenge each other. I told him to give me a date.... challenge me to loose X lbs by X date. So he said, Jan 1. I said DEAL! I am angling for a fantastic vacation get-away with the Beau for my birthday (which is in Feb) if I get under 200. (I'm thinking somewhere warm and riddled with palm trees).... he said (and I quote): Maybe... I might not have a choice (Me:why?)... I might be compelled to (Me:to show me off?)... exactly! So, there could be a fantastic tropical February vacation for me if I can loose the weight!

So, what it boils down to, is I just have to lose 1 pound a week, every week for the next 4 months. I think it can work! :) I will post regularly my progress, my frustrations, and probably things that have nothing to do with dieting whatsoever.

Setting Out...

So. My very first blog. It is my hope that by blabbing here about my frustrations with this new dieting challenge that I will be inspired to keep going. Plus, I recently read "Such a Pretty Fat: One Narcissist's Quest To Discover if Her Life Makes Her Ass Look Big (Or Why Pie is Not The Answer)" by Jen Lancaster, and let me tell you, she's hysterical! Plus, she used her writing as motivation to drop weight and she did and felt super, so I decided "hey that is not such a bad idea!" (however, she got paid big bucks for her weightloss story - I will not be that fortunate).

So, let's get onto why I've decided to take that route. My wonderful, loving, fantastic boyfriend and I both want to lose weight. He wants both of us to look stunning when we get married. And by all means, so do I. I don't want to look back at my wedding pictures and say "Wow, I was a cow".....So we decided to challenge each other. I'm dropping 25 pounds by Jan. 1, and he's dropping 20 pounds by Dec 1. I am also giving up soda for the month of September, just for a kick start. I have an insane addiction to diet coke, and that needs to be tempered!!