Thursday, August 28, 2008

Sugar-Free Plums, Dancing In My Head

So, last night I fell asleep fairly early and was in a deep slumber... suddenly I started dreaming about Coldstone... yummy, yummy Coldstone. Suddenly, I was chastising myself in my dream, saying I couldn't eat Coldstone because I was trying to lose weight... so I started dreaming about the SmartOnes dessert. Specifically the chocoloate chip cookie dough one. Apparently I won't even let myself indulge in my little dream world. This is a good sign, no?

Which reminds me... I guess I should go grocery shopping.

I was supposed to go to Seal Team training with Em today but it was rainy and messy so we didn't go. However, I went to campus today to volunteer some, and I parked as far away as I could and walked all over the campus instead of driving around, so I was proud of myself for that. I am hoping it won't rain tomorrow so I can get outside and run.

I got on the scale yesterday and was 226... a pound down from 227, which is what I was at the Beau's house. But, two different scales... but it's a promise. Especially since my acheiving my goal sort involves losing a lb a week ......I've been good the past few days, although I did have one minor indescresion today - I knew after Sept 1 I was going to be super serious about the eating thing, plus I knew dinner wouldn't be until late and I was so so hungry, so I stopped to pick up an order of Crab Rangoon from the chinese food store because a.) I love them and b.) it was my last hurrah. It was a quick, yummy snack, but I know it was ridiculously not healthy. But.... it made me happy.

I found out that my friend bought "The Flat Belly Diet", and I was really excited, because I learned all about it on the Rachel Ray show and I am waiting for it to come to B&N so I don't have to pay $40 for it.... well, she is going to copy the grocery list and recipies for me to get a kick start on it. I must say, though, I am a little worried that the plan won't keep me satisfied, but we'll see! :)

So, almost a week gone of moving towards being healthy. I'm feeling good about this. *fingers crossed*. I'm going to kick ass. :)

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

My Fat Story

Now it seems like a good time to segue into my "fat" story.

I would like to take this moment to say that if you looked at me, you wouldn't think I weighed as much as I do. I've got wide shoulders, big boobies, and a surprisingly small waist. I am built like a line backer, according to my dear mother. I do have a big fat roll in my mid section, but I consider myself on the pretty side. I'm chunky... but don't like to consider myself "FAT".

As a kid, I was tall, skinny, and all arms and legs. I was a wild woodland child, climbing trees and playing in the creek and doing skin-the-cats on the monkey bars. Then.... puberty. Drat it all on puberty. Somehow then, I couldn't eat whatever I wanted and not gain weight. But I was never terribly fat... just fatter than all my friends. I was very active; I played softball and was in the marching band. Then, college. Somehow, the pounds has snuck up on me very slowly during my 4 years in college and my 3 years since.

And now they must go. Somehow after college, I snuck up to wearing a size 20. I got on the scale one day and it read 239. That was my wake up call. I freaked out. So, I starting working out more often, and I started training for a 5K and swimming 2 days a week. I dropped weight like THAT (imgine me snapping my fingers). I had to buy new pants and everything. I dropped 20 lbs and went to a 16. I was thrilled! But then life got a little hectic and I stopped working out and swimming and watching what I ate. So now I'm still bouncing around in the 220s. I desperately want to be sub-200. That is my biggest goal.

So, my boyfriend and I are in this together. He wants to loose weight too (even though he is incredibly sexy, he has some lbs he wants to take off) but he doesn't need to take off as much as I do. So we decided to challenge each other. I told him to give me a date.... challenge me to loose X lbs by X date. So he said, Jan 1. I said DEAL! I am angling for a fantastic vacation get-away with the Beau for my birthday (which is in Feb) if I get under 200. (I'm thinking somewhere warm and riddled with palm trees).... he said (and I quote): Maybe... I might not have a choice (Me:why?)... I might be compelled to (Me:to show me off?)... exactly! So, there could be a fantastic tropical February vacation for me if I can loose the weight!

So, what it boils down to, is I just have to lose 1 pound a week, every week for the next 4 months. I think it can work! :) I will post regularly my progress, my frustrations, and probably things that have nothing to do with dieting whatsoever.

Setting Out...

So. My very first blog. It is my hope that by blabbing here about my frustrations with this new dieting challenge that I will be inspired to keep going. Plus, I recently read "Such a Pretty Fat: One Narcissist's Quest To Discover if Her Life Makes Her Ass Look Big (Or Why Pie is Not The Answer)" by Jen Lancaster, and let me tell you, she's hysterical! Plus, she used her writing as motivation to drop weight and she did and felt super, so I decided "hey that is not such a bad idea!" (however, she got paid big bucks for her weightloss story - I will not be that fortunate).

So, let's get onto why I've decided to take that route. My wonderful, loving, fantastic boyfriend and I both want to lose weight. He wants both of us to look stunning when we get married. And by all means, so do I. I don't want to look back at my wedding pictures and say "Wow, I was a cow".....So we decided to challenge each other. I'm dropping 25 pounds by Jan. 1, and he's dropping 20 pounds by Dec 1. I am also giving up soda for the month of September, just for a kick start. I have an insane addiction to diet coke, and that needs to be tempered!!